Kaydons surgery is less than a week away. I am really dredding this. My head was completely numb with worry when we went to doernbecher for his consult. Until that fat nurse said that I would get to walk him to the surgery room and have to "give him up" at the operating room doors. I dont care if she would have said it differently, I still would have felt the same. Awful. No one wants to hand their baby over to someone who is going to cut them open! I think I am going to have to make Kacey be the one to hand him over. I won't be able to do that. Not without having a meltdown.
So they are going to slice him open. I am not ok with it. I keep trying to tell myself that I am ok with it. I am ok. See. Does NOT work. I am more ok with the slicing part. And less ok with the general anesthesia part. My mom's partner had a minor surgery and due to the anesthesia he stopped breathing for a few minutes, and is now forever brain damaged. So I might be jaded. But this happened to a 250 pound man. And they are going to put my 5 pound baby under. SO not ok.
On a different note, the Dr. said that the reason he has been sluggish to gain weight and eat is because of his hernia. So he will be a little slow to eat after the surgery for a couple days, but then his weight should sky rocket and he will catch up with brother pretty quick.
I BURNED MY THUMB! So it hurts to press the space bar, and after twenty years of typing, I has gotten so used to using my right hand for the space key that it is VERY hard to use the lef thand.